Saturday, November 12, 2011

Two more seemingly constant things: fear and economics

I think my economics results are out.

And... I'm not looking.

Because I am terrified. The main source of this fear is the What If question. What if I failed again?

You can't even begin to imagine how much I want these results to tell me I passed. Which of course means that if I don't, the disappointment will be crushing.

So, since I don't want to take the risk of crying over the weekend, I decided to find out how I did on Monday. Only thing I regret about this is that it's eating at me. Constantly. What ifs buzz around my head, preventing any sort of creative output.

There's only one thing to do: Mentally prepare, because I have to get through this. I am not letting this subject define my character or put a limit on my life. I am not going to let this course scar me more than it already has.

I have a life to live and I refuse to let a subject like economics prevent me from doing exactly that.

4 comments:

Mike Keyton said...

I have a life to live and I refuse to let a subject like economics prevent me from doing exactly that. --> especially economics :) Good luck

Claudia Moser said...

I have no doubts that all is well!

Elizabeth said...

New Follower.

Stopping by to have a look around. Nice blog.

Elizabeth

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Sharon K. Mayhew said...

You know, not every subject is for every person. I majored in business for a year. I totally struggled. Numbers weren't for me...Well not those kind of numbers.

You are right this grade will not define you! (hug)