Yesterday I worked as an extra again, this time for a movie. I'm really glad I did, because it made me realize something. Yes, I love drama and performing, but not for film.
From where I sat, there was something cold and clinical to the way that films are created, with scenes filmed according to where they happen, as puzzle pieces to the story. And then they do it again and again until they're just right.
As much as I love watching movies, I can't see myself making them. I love the warmth of living the characters for a time. The spontaneity of knowing that whatever happens on the stage will be seen and be seen immediately. I missed the energy that comes from the audience.
So yeah. I'm not going to be aiming to get on t.v. If it's ever offered to me, I'll think about it, but it won't be what I'm hoping to achieve.
Got any interesting realizations about your life?