Thursday, April 2, 2015
A to Z Challenge: Blessings
As I mentioned yesterday, 2014 was one of those years I'll happily never want to repeat again. It's now April, and my family and I are still dealing with ramifications of what had happened. So, in an effort to come to terms with everything, I'm writing about things I've learned in this period. This way, I at least have something positive to take away from all my experiences.
Just so you know, this post will have a Christian theme to it, so if you'd rather read something religion free, I have a blog about writing here.
Let me tell you a simple truth. Watching your whole life sink down a drain without you being able to do anything about it is enough to drive one mad.
Again, I'm left struggling for words. I don't think I can make someone understand what the few months between December and March of this year was like. And that says a lot. I'm a writer. I should be able to make people understand anything.
The year 2014 was the worst year of my life so far, and December to March was when the full impact of everything that had happened hit at the same time. If you've read my pre-2014 posts on this blog, you'll know I'm a go-getter. So the worst of this period is this sense I had. That a damn wall had burst somewhere and flooded my life with so much negativity that I had no power to do anything but to let myself be washed along by the torrent.
This feeling, to say the least, is terrifying.
The powerlessness about it is worse.
Especially when you see your loved ones in the middle of the disaster right there with you.
A few blessings were all that stood between me and despair:
God staying with me and being with me. Even when I screamed at Him in anger and pain.
Knowing (probably because of God's help) that no matter what had happened, none of it was a physical. Neither me, nor any members of my family, nor our employees or even our pets were seriously ill or passed away during this bleak period between December and March. My losses, although having an impact on my belief in humanity, never truly impacted my person or those of my loved ones.
Knowing (definitely with God's help) that Romans 8:28 is true:
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. (More on this on U-Day)
As long as long as I kept those blessings in front of me, the events swirling around me weren't insurmountable. Because no matter how big those things are, my God is bigger, and I have Him on my side.
Have you counted your blessings lately?