One advantage I have when it comes to writing this blog is the fact that I'm so much more self aware for it.
Especially when it comes to my "Taking Charge of my Life" posts. I never post something under that tab unless I've managed some extent of success with it.
It also means that often, I also know where I struggle. And yes, I do.
I struggle a lot.
The posts I write are up-beat and orientated towards successes, but there are always things I want to do better. To do more of.
One of these things is managing my weight.
And trust me, I've probably tried everything in the book when it comes to that. The only method I've found to meet with constant and noticeable success is cutting out sugar and refined flour to a large extent.
I say large extent for the same reason why I'm only writing this now, at 9 p.m., when I should have had this post scheduled this morning. Without some form of carbohydrates, I'm useless.
And no, it isn't some sort of food addiction thing. I've been off carbs for two weeks, wanting to kick start my weight loss and hijack control back over my food. I don't really crave any more (thanks to my "I don't want to eat these" thinking), but I'm definitely feeling the lack.
I don't lack energy. But I lack the sort of energy that pops up on demand. (Don't ask. I'm not a specialist. This is coming from own experiences.) Like yesterday, I tried to swim. It felt like I was in custard.
So yeah, cutting carbs and exercise are turning into an either/or thing for me. I want to like exercise. I want to like the way I feel sugar free.
Right now, I don't.
Still, I'm keeping to my challenge. Why? Because it's Wednesday of my second week. The third will be my last for now. Then it'll be much healthier choices for me.
In the meantime, though, I'm down to pure determination. I don't like eating protein all the time. I hate the lack of variety. Most of all, I hate the feeling I have to live with.
But by jove I will get through this, because I'm stronger than my food tastes.
Anyone else change the way you ate recently?