Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Taking charge of my health

In the process of taking charge of my life, I decided to get more serious about my health again. Since dieting doesn't ever work for me in more than the absolute short term, I decided to go the other route. 

Yep.
 
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I joined the gym. When this blog goes live, I'll be busy pumping weights and getting fit. 

And boy do I need it. Since I stopped dancing, I never do anything that involves physical activity. So those pounds have been heaping on. And to be honest I'm tired of it. 

So yeah, I'm actually really excited to start. I've been threatening and threatening to join since January but just kept procrastinating. 

No more. 

I am so ready to be trim and fit. 

AND! Because I'm starting in the winter, I'll have a much more gorgeous body by the summer. 

But I also have other reasons to get fit. It's a great way to de-stress and since I'm still working to control it, exercise will be exactly what I need. 

I also will be going to Europe a lot from now on, so I'll need to have more stamina. 

Yeah... so I'll let you all know how it's going. 

Anyone else started to exercise recently? How's it going? 

Monday, June 18, 2012

Change of Pace

As I mentioned last week, I went to visit my father this weekend. It did turn out to give me a change of pace that I needed.

I also drew again for the first time in months. It was little more than a sketch of a sketch by Renoir, but it was fun. So much fun, in fact, that I came home and went into an art store. Sooooo... now I have charcoal, paper, canvas, oil paints, a sketch pad and a huge itch to draw or paint something. And draw I will.

AND I am going to get my activities sorted out. If I keep complaining that nothing fits in, and that prevents me from doing things, it only means that I will get less done.

So.

I am going to fit everything in somehow. I'm pretty sure it will only take a bit more thought and some commitment. I'd taken a long period of rest. It's time that I got back in the saddle.

Will let you know how everything fits in.

What did you do over the weekend?

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

It's a work in progress

As I mentioned on Monday, I'm working to control the effects on stress on my life, but I will admit that it's not easy.

In my line of work, some days feel like a long parade of bad/negative/toxic people. Today is one of those. In fact, it even started earlier than usual, so I didn't even get my usual early morning peace.

Soo... yeah... I'm embarrassed to admit that I went back to my old ways of thinking and reacting. And you know what? Two days worth of work took about three hours to be unraveled.

I think negative behaviors breed like bacteria once you give them ideal circumstances. And negative thinking and reacting badly pretty much creates that wet, sheltered environment that those bad habits need.

Five hours into my day, I was completely freaking out. I wanted to cut and run. Anything but face another five minutes in that situation.

Afterwards, I realized that it wasn't that bad. It's just that if I let my negative thoughts and actions grow, they choke me. When that happens, I don't have the necessary perspective that I need in order to stay in charge of my life. Anything feels like too much effort and nothing feels worth it. Not even the things that I know are very important to me.

So as I write this, I'm thinking positive things. After I post this, I'm going to take some time to just be quiet and breathe. This weekend I'm going to be away from the office to see my dad for the first time in nearly two years. I'm hoping that (in addition to the joy of seeing him again) the change of pace (no work) and scenery (other side of the country) will give me enough peace to make my positive outlook more of a habit.

Step by step, I will beat my self-damaging way of thinking.

Anyone else decide to try the two things I suggested yesterday? How's it working for you?

Monday, June 11, 2012

Two easy changes that help you deal with stress

So... as I mentioned last week, I had blood tests done a week ago to see what the heck was draining me so much.

I did a blood sugar test, a hormone test and a blood level test.... and.... I got put back on my hormone medication that I'd stopped about a year ago.

But here's the kicker. The hormones that are out of whack have nothing to do with energy levels. Which basically means that this severe exhaustion that I've been suffering from for most of last week was in my mind.

If I think about this, it makes sense. The work I'm doing goes from no stress to pressure-cooker pressure in five minutes and back again. The people are demanding. The amounts of money involved is HUGE. And the product can rot in transit. No one in the industry respects the concept of office hours or even lunch time. So on bad days, the pressure starts at 7 a.m. and doesn't let up until I sleep.

Last week was the first calm one after a full week of pressure and I think what I suffered from wasn't exhaustion. It was lethargy. I was tired of doing thing non-stop. So my subconscious made up my mind for me and told my body I wouldn't do anything.

Amazingly, when I dragged myself to church last night, we had a wonderful guest speaker, Peter van Jaarsveld who's a world authority on emotional intelligence and stress management. Basically he discussed things that made intuitive sense to me.

But because I never realized the importance of these things, I never paid a lot of attention to putting them into practice.

Things like positive thoughts. Or breathing deeply and thinking happy thoughts.

I used to think that it's just something people used to say, but when he had us practicing in church, it really made a big difference.

So I decided to put what I learnt into practice this week and see how it goes, since it pretty much involves taking charge of my stress and through that, my life.

So....

First portion of dealing with my stress is to release positive hormones that come from positive thoughts. I do that by picking 10 positive statements in my life. They don't have to be true right now. All I have to do is mean what I say.

My ten statements are:

1) I am a great person.
2) I am in control of how I think and what I say.
3) I am in control of my life and can achieve anything I set out to do.
4) I will look after my physical, emotional and spiritual health.
5) I am talented.
6) I am going to lose the weight I've been trying to shake.
7) I am going to publish my books.
8) I am going to perform and sing.
9) I am happy.
10) I have a great sense of humor.

Now I have to read them to myself every day.

The second portion is breathing. Yep. I'm going to take seven one-minute sessions to just focus on being calm and happy. Three steps to this one:

1) Sit still (and straight) and just focus on your heart to calm your mind.
2) Breathe deeply with your diaphragm. Six counts to inhale. Two counts to hold. Six counts to exhale.
3) After a few of these breaths, think of something that happened in the past week that made you happy, every time that you exhale.

Easy right? The best thing for me is that there's a sound scientific reasoning (and research) behind these two solutions to stress. Just not going into it right not because Dr. van Jaarsveld took most of two hours to explain it all.

Now I just want to see how well it works. Are you going to join me? What are your ten positive statements?

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Wednesday, June 6, 2012

My First Book: About the silence...

My First Book: About the silence...: Hi all, just want to let you know that I'm still alive. Just very very exhausted. So much so that I went to the doctor yesterday to do some ...